Written in 2011 during training for the Cellcom Half Marathon…Tara, a Fellow Flower Original, shares her story – the reason behind why she decided to run in a race that has now become sacred ground to her and her family. Her journey…her story…will inspire you. Word for word, this email was originally shared with 13 other women in early 2011, her virtual training group. It is these emails, or as we now call them, Anthems, that are the heart, the soul, the beginning, of Fellow Flowers. Thank you for sharing such a precious and powerful message Tara…xo.
I have enjoyed reading everyone’s motivations so far. You are all strong, inspiring women!! Here’s what’s driving me…
Not long after that race our baby journey began. I didn’t run in 07 because I was hoping to be pregnant by then (if I only knew), but after a year of not having any luck on our own we decided to get things checked out. Several tests, ultrasounds, clomid cycles, and a year later, we were given a diagnosis of ‘unexplained infertility’ – i.e., “there is no answer to your problems”…”relax, it will happen!”….”as soon as you quit trying you’ll be pregnant” blah, blah, blah. On the outside I knew what all the right things to be thinking and saying were, but on the inside I was slowly unraveling. Running was my escape, the place I would go to clear my head and just get good and pissed off…and it showed, because in 2008 and 2009 I ran personal bests around 7:30 per mile!! Running was the one thing I could control the outcome of, where the amount of effort I put in actually DID give results.
The summer of 2009 we decided to move ahead with fertility treatments. Our first IVF attempt was successful, and we were overjoyed and flabbergasted when we found out that both embryos we implanted had fertilized…twins! I won’t get into all the details here because that’s another story in itself, but after a challenging pregnancy and 12 days of bedrest I delivered Drew and Katie at just 25 weeks along. As most of you know, Drew only made it about 12 hours before we had to say goodbye. But Miss Katie won her battle, overcame the odds, and just had her first birthday on January 8th! This year I run for them…their courage and strength fuel my fire now instead of my own selfish competitiveness and stress.
Actually WE (my brother, husband, and I) are running in honor of Drew. We are calling ourselves “Drew’s Crew” and have raised over $1,800 (thanks to many of you!) in Run for a Reason’s partner, Cerebral Palsy, Inc. I never dreamed we’d raise so much money in such a short period of time – the support has been overwhelming and inspiring!
So I feel like I have come full circle…once again, my goal is just to finish. I’m not paying attention to time; I’m just going to enjoy the ride with my husband at my side, a stroller to wave at along the way, and an angel watching over us with every step we take.
I hope you enjoy your ride and I can’t wait to see you all in GB!
THIS IS MY ANTHEM.